I like the letter matching names for each of the given days such as Tender Tuesday. However, with this given day, I have been going back and forth on names. However, I like the sound of Tender Tuesday so from this day forth, Tuesdays are designated as days that will possibly lean to the emotional side of life, which tends to happen with most of my posts because I don’t know. It’s just who I am, I guess.
Anyway, today’s topic is loss of a loved one.
I, fortunately, have not suffered a great loss in my life because nobody I’ve been really close to has past on. My grandpa and my uncle passed away about 10 years ago, give or take. Honestly though, I wasn’t real close with them. When they passed, I did cry because it’s sad. Generally, it’s sad when anyone leaves this world. Right?
Anyway enough rambling there.
Recently, as previously mentioned, someone I knew many years ago passed away and he was quite young, only 40. Four years ago, someone a little bit closer to home, so to speak, passed away and she was younger yet. These deaths are the ones that have hit me the hardest. Maybe it’s because I knew them. Maybe it’s only because of the death itself. Either way, these have really sunk into my heart and made an impression there. I think about their families. I think about what gets left behind. I think about the change that their homes must now endure. My heart goes out to their families. Their children. Their spouses.
And then, inevitably, my thoughts start racing with worries of my own children and my husband in the event of my death. Or even worse, in the event of my husbands’ death.
Thoughts of being without the other.
Thoughts of my children being without a mother or a father.
Thoughts of emotional acceptance, grieving.
Thoughts of life continuing after such an event.
Thoughts of money, how to survive.
How does one even prepare for such sadness? Where does one even begin to heal after such a loss? The anxiety begins to set in. My nerves get bound and my breathing quickens or shallows depending on the thought itself. Oh, life is scary sometimes.
I have to constantly remind myself to have Faith. To keep Faith.
Because God is with me at all times. He is the strength we need. He is the healer of all. He is the Everything.
Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. – Isaish 41:10
A prayer to all who have lost someone:
Bless those who mourn, eternal God,
with the comfort of your love
that they may face each new day with hope
and the certainty that nothing can destroy
the good that has been given. May their memories become joyful,
their days enriched with friendship,
and their lives encircled by your love.
Say ‘I love you’ to the ones you love.
Every day because you just don’t know when it will be the last time.
Make every moment in your life count, spend time with loved ones, make friends, spread love all around you because these are the memories worth making.
My heart goes out to the family of the person whom I mentioned above. I didn’t know him anymore, but I am certain that he was loved by all who did.