One of the hardest parts of a devoted prayer life and daily walk with the Lord for me is discerning between His will and mine. I battle inside to know if I am following Him or following my own selfish desires/wants/tendencies, but I fear – I know – that it’s the latter.
I read something recently about prayer and the answers we receive. I believe God answers our prayers. I have faith that whatever His answer is, it is the answer we need most. This doesn’t always align with what we want most. A thought to ponder when it comes prayers being answered is
God’s timing is perfect timing and may not always happen when we want it.
I question, when it comes to praying, how to proceed when the answer I want is not the answer I get. I question whether I received an answer at all.
Within the last month, I found myself, my family, facing a very difficult situation, but someone I know and love with all my heart is smack-dab in the middle of the situation so whatever the result is, said person will be affected most. First I prayed and cried, then I worried and fretted, and then I prayed some more. I prayed very specifically for something concerning the situation because as the Bible states:
Therefore I tell you, all things you pray and ask for, believe that you receive them, and you shall have them. – Mark 11:24
However, I felt slighted because I didn’t get what I prayed for. God’s answer, at that time, appeared to be no, not right now. So then, out of selfishness, I became angry. I broke down and I blamed God. I was distraught. I was heart-broken.
I lost a little faith at that point, but looking back a few weeks ago on that prayer, I have since re-examined the situation to see that my prayer was answered. It was answered according to His will, not mine. I just wasn’t seeing anything very clearly and I wasn’t putting my faith, my trust in God.
So, in essence, His timing is not always my timing, but His timing is always perfect timing.
And to be the best Christian I can be, I don’t have to like His timing, but I do have to believe that God is looking out for my best interest and have trust in Him.
God bless us all in our daily struggles.